Although I always felt different, I assumed that I should be able to work through it, in 2008 due to issues at work my boss asked if I thought I could have Aspergers syndrome.
So read Tony Atwood's the complete guide to Asperger's Syndrome and my jaw dropped in recognition,- Not that I endorse Asperger, but my journey is was it is.
Back then robust diagnosis was not available in my area, so went on the waiting list 4years ago and got diagnosed, waiting for ADHD assessment now under right to choose.
I would love to be positive about having an ASC but the truth is I really hate it, which is silly, but it is also how I feel.
My condition has messed up my life and brought me great humiliation, and romantic/ sexual failure.
For me the things that I like about me that are likely due to my neurodiversity, are far outweighed by the negatives.
That's my truth and now that's out of the way, my special interests are daydreaming whilst twisting strimmer cable, The Stranglers rock band, Miki Berenyi, Cthulhu Mythos.
Researching various topics on youtube.
Anyone find that because they avoid talking too much about special interests, those interests wane a little?
The YouTube creator I'm autistic, now what? mentions a scientific ppaape that states that stimming is essential for an Autistic persons mental health, so I now Stim when safe to do so :-)
and feel better for it.
All the best
