Newly Diagnosed AuDHD.. feel like an imposter

Hello all,

42yr old female and mother of 3 - diagnosed with ADHD and Autism just yesterday. ADHD made sense, and I went ahead with the Autism assessment, because my therapists and diagnosticians suggested I do so. I thought my life experiences were normal. So I was completely shocked to receive a diagnosis.

As this is so new, I am reading through Autism material online, and honestly, I feel like such an imposter. There are so many people that have it worse than me. Even my son has issues with interoception, back and forth conversation, etc, and I feel wrong taking this label, when he is still on the waiting list for one. I have had issues with friendships, social cues, executive functioning etc all my life - however I feel awful describing myself as someone with a disability, when clearly, I am okay in comparison to others.

Anyone else feel this way? I feel embarrassed to tell others about my diagnosis (even family) because I fear no one will believe me (I don't really believe it myself).  Somehow I feel like I have managed to convince myself that I have Autism, because I researched it to the death before my assessment. Maybe I just convinced the assessors, and managed to pass the test - so this is all just a huge mistake????

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  • I just had my first GP appointment and got my referrals for Autism and ADHD and I feel like I am making this all up too Joy I try to think that the tests and doctors know how to look past potential "lying" and that such act would theoretically be paired with other behaviours that we do not dispose anyway!

    It is hilarious how hard we are on ourselves!! We are just a bit different :) 

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  • I just had my first GP appointment and got my referrals for Autism and ADHD and I feel like I am making this all up too Joy I try to think that the tests and doctors know how to look past potential "lying" and that such act would theoretically be paired with other behaviours that we do not dispose anyway!

    It is hilarious how hard we are on ourselves!! We are just a bit different :) 

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