Hi,
I’ve always felt strange and like an alien. But having no idea why it’s led to a lifetime of shame, resentment, anxiety and depression. I’ve had a successful career in software engineering but often been fired or selected for redundancy due to difficulties at work and with interpersonal relationships. I’m relying on a day a week working for a local company here in rural mid-Wales. To this point I’ve blamed myself or others around me for difficulties which makes me unhappy trusting others or myself.
It was only when I met my sister-I’m-law whose son has autism, ADHD and dyspraxia. She had retrained as a specialist teaching assistant after her son’s diagnosis and recognised traits in me. Only took me 15years to get around to my own diagnosis. Now I have it I’m unsure how to feel or be. It all feels a bit unreal whilst also explaining many things about how I am.
I have been recommended some books to help me understand myself better and to develop some more gentle coping strategies. I would be very happy to. hear about any others, particularly for dual diagnosis or AuDHD.
About me,
I grew up in the 70/80s and love the era for film and music.
I am an avid reader or sci-fi, fantasy and cosmic horror.
I enjoy table top role playing games and boardgames. Though I often end up playing solo versions. I do enjoy the odd group game.
I have a huge interest in railways, history and retro 80s computers. Including designing and building homebrew 8/16bit computers from individual integrated circuits.
Happy to talk to others in similar situations.
all the best,
Steve
