New here feeling isolated since diagnosis

Hi everyone, I'm new to this online community. I rarely reach out online to share my problems, I just thought I would try and share what im going through. I was diagnosed with high functioning autism last summer at the age of 26, since being diagnosed life has become even more confusing and isolating for me, it is difficult especially because my family don't necessarily believe in autism or want to accept that I am on the spectrum, it's almost like im only labeled as being autistic when it suits them.

life for me has always felt incredibly lonely and isolating, I never considered myself to be autistic I just thought I was shy and a bit strange (people would tell me growing up), now as a young women I still have the same interests I had as a child and life is very lonely for me I literally dont have any friends I dont speak to anyone anymore not even some family members, I don't use social media anymore because it become all to much (needed a break I guess), I always struggled to make and maintain friendships and any I did have its been years since we've spoken. It is difficult for me to reach out, my life isn't particularly interesting, there's not much going on for me and I'm embarrassed about not having much to talk about with anyone.

I'm just at a point in my life where I feel so incredibly alone and stuck. I'm not in the best situation and I've never been able to find a way out of it. There's so much more I can say but for now it's really me just hoping to connect with neurodivergent people. Hopefully there's someone else out there who understands what I'm going through. I don't even know if anyone will read this but if you do I appreciate your time in reading my post. 

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  • Hi and welcome to the community, you are not alone and many of us have felt the same way. What are your interests?

  • Hi Lotus, heres some of my interests 

    I've always been creative. I enjoy anything artsy drawing, colouring, painting, making things with felt and also making costume jewellery earrings. I like playing the sims animal crossing and tomb raider. I love animals, especially dogs and hamsters. 

    I've always loved learning about history mostly from the Tudor/Victorian period but also ancient history like ancient Egypt. I like myths and legends too.

    I like fantasy movies/series like GOT, and LOTR, also Star wars, Disney & Studio Ghibli movies, especially Howl moving castle which is my favourite movie ever.

    I also love anything Hello Kitty, magical things like fairies and I like to collect cute stationary/art supplies.

    Haha I could go on forever but yes this is me Slight smile

  • See, you have lots to talk about with us! Blush

    I like playing Sims 4 and I've also played Assassins Creed Origins, Odyssey & Valhalla which give an insight into different periods of history. I also like Star Wars, and I read a lot.

  • The two Alice books and The Lion ... were two of my favourite books.

    I liked Magician by Feist when it first appeared.

    Then Jules Verne, HG Wells, the gateway to EE Doc Smith and then science fiction.

    Basically all just escapism. Much like Star Wars in 1978.

    I liked the Hobbit, but have never been able to read LoTR or watch the movies. 

    History is interesting too. I think for the facts and figures, but mostly for the idea of a different world I can imagine myself in. Preferably without an untimely and bloodthirsty end.

    I have visited lots of National Trust (and some EH) places for this reason I think. I went to Tintagel not long ago.

    Dragons seem to have a timeless appeal. I don't know why.

  • thats great thank you i will check it out!

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