New here feeling isolated since diagnosis

Hi everyone, I'm new to this online community. I rarely reach out online to share my problems, I just thought I would try and share what im going through. I was diagnosed with high functioning autism last summer at the age of 26, since being diagnosed life has become even more confusing and isolating for me, it is difficult especially because my family don't necessarily believe in autism or want to accept that I am on the spectrum, it's almost like im only labeled as being autistic when it suits them.

life for me has always felt incredibly lonely and isolating, I never considered myself to be autistic I just thought I was shy and a bit strange (people would tell me growing up), now as a young women I still have the same interests I had as a child and life is very lonely for me I literally dont have any friends I dont speak to anyone anymore not even some family members, I don't use social media anymore because it become all to much (needed a break I guess), I always struggled to make and maintain friendships and any I did have its been years since we've spoken. It is difficult for me to reach out, my life isn't particularly interesting, there's not much going on for me and I'm embarrassed about not having much to talk about with anyone.

I'm just at a point in my life where I feel so incredibly alone and stuck. I'm not in the best situation and I've never been able to find a way out of it. There's so much more I can say but for now it's really me just hoping to connect with neurodivergent people. Hopefully there's someone else out there who understands what I'm going through. I don't even know if anyone will read this but if you do I appreciate your time in reading my post. 

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  • Hi and welcome to the community, you are not alone and many of us have felt the same way. What are your interests?

  • Hi Lotus, heres some of my interests 

    I've always been creative. I enjoy anything artsy drawing, colouring, painting, making things with felt and also making costume jewellery earrings. I like playing the sims animal crossing and tomb raider. I love animals, especially dogs and hamsters. 

    I've always loved learning about history mostly from the Tudor/Victorian period but also ancient history like ancient Egypt. I like myths and legends too.

    I like fantasy movies/series like GOT, and LOTR, also Star wars, Disney & Studio Ghibli movies, especially Howl moving castle which is my favourite movie ever.

    I also love anything Hello Kitty, magical things like fairies and I like to collect cute stationary/art supplies.

    Haha I could go on forever but yes this is me Slight smile

  • Ohh yeah really cool diverse interests! I love studio Ghibli, Howl is one of my top favourites, along with Spirited Away. For a while on my work discord, I had Calcifer as my profile image.

    Do you listen to the music soundtracks so all? Listening to Ghibli soundtracks is some of my best focus music. Joe Hishashi is a genius putting together the scores for each film.

  • Merry go round of life is such a lovely piece of music, that is awesome you are managing to pick it up and play it! That's very cool!

    There is an album they did, called 'Merry-go-round: Studio Ghibli music' with Joe Hishashi and the Royal Philharmonic Orchestra. (I listen to it on Spotify). The only track that's given me trouble is The Demon God from Princess Mononke- I started getting a bit of a panic attack, till I realised it was just because this track was playing! I do like it for the intensity but have to be ready for it or I just skip that one.

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  • Merry go round of life is such a lovely piece of music, that is awesome you are managing to pick it up and play it! That's very cool!

    There is an album they did, called 'Merry-go-round: Studio Ghibli music' with Joe Hishashi and the Royal Philharmonic Orchestra. (I listen to it on Spotify). The only track that's given me trouble is The Demon God from Princess Mononke- I started getting a bit of a panic attack, till I realised it was just because this track was playing! I do like it for the intensity but have to be ready for it or I just skip that one.

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