I’m 18 years old and male in university. I am intelligent. I have autism and diagnosed ADHD. I have never had a friend in my life (not exaggerating one bit) and am currently completely alone. I see other kids living normal lives around me and I wish I could join in and be happy like them. I can’t talk to people without the usage of amphetamines, benzos, beta blockers, and Pregabalin. Despite my best efforts, I am still alone. I don’t know why people don’t like me, I always try to talk about normal things but still people detect that I am aspy. I have went to social events but always felt left out, invisible. People in my cohort often don’t even want to look at me. I spend my weekends completely alone and go days without talking to people. I am often suicidal. Anyone in a similar situation to me or has any advice?
