Whole life flashing before my eyes since diagnosis!

I am experiencing a constant stream of memories from my whole life, several decades of it. So much misunderstanding, judgement and rejection, and now i know why i have always been 'weird' for other people. Any big stress and i would talk about myself too much. I have felt so much shame for doing this.  Contrasted with my 'normal' persona which was ultra polite, kind, helpful and 'such a good listener' and, i now see, not 'me' at all but an adaptation to try to belong, i guess others were confused and put off by me. 

Does anyone relate to this?

Parents
  • Im with you im cone off as normal to strangers as I've been practicing how to be normal for so long but on my own woth online people im very different person that's why I may never get a diagnosis I dont have winded speech or echolalia or issues talking to the testers im limited on wjat to say because I get wedgy trying to think and very limited in what to say because I really don't know how to answers questions if I could just ramble on about all my difficulties them maybe id be ok 

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  • Im with you im cone off as normal to strangers as I've been practicing how to be normal for so long but on my own woth online people im very different person that's why I may never get a diagnosis I dont have winded speech or echolalia or issues talking to the testers im limited on wjat to say because I get wedgy trying to think and very limited in what to say because I really don't know how to answers questions if I could just ramble on about all my difficulties them maybe id be ok 

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