Hello,
I am really sad today because my brother was here for a couple of days from Portsmouth after many years of seperation and I am convinced that his problems with our fragmented family are as a result of Autism which no one even knew existed when we were children. He was totsally misunderstood and had such a hard time of life.
For 2 days he did not stop talking even when I went to the loo - I was exhausted but was determied to remain on good terms I told him I thought he was Autistic and amy have ADHD. He had told me about what appeared to be meltdowns. We had started texting for 18 months until he finally trusted me to tell me about his meltdowns.
He is a lovely chap who has made his life as a children's entertainer and I am - as he is, so glad that at last we have come to understnad each other, he said he thought I was great which also made me feel better because basically my life has afllen apart and I am so lonley. Looking back I can see all the overreactions and misunderstandings and difficulties. All the people in the family who ended up in mental institutiuons due to breakdowns etc etc.
I found out 4 years ago that my eldest daughter has Asbergers - she lectures at a university but will not have anything to do with me, she can't manage a relationship with me despite my years of trying. I love her and miuss her. When I found out she had Asbergers it took me a couple of months to come to terms with all the changes I had to make in my mind about her behaviour which I could never understand. This story could write a bokk so I have to stop just now except to say I think everyone i my family has some form of Autism, I look back now and think my mother had Asbergers, the repercussions were awful for us all as children and she carried her destructions on until she died
I feel so alone I wish I could talk to someone who understood how all this can be possible, it is all so complicated and now I am almost 80 too much as I have been a sort of rock which for the last two years has been crumbling and that has also caused all sorts of alienation.
Thank you for reading this
Ros
