I’m a little upset and now find I almost have to hide my autism and my “Autistic “behaviour “ from my family. They say I’m just seeking attention, you don’t act Autistic, anyone can get a diagnosis, stop playing with you hands stand still don’t block your ears, why are you angry, you’re not listening to me, etc, etc I get laughed at too.
im not sure whether im going to have to mask myself, undo all my self acceptance, it’s so hard because when I was diagnosed, I felt set free from all the years and decades of psychological mis diognoses and medications……I accept my autism, though now as time goes on, my months of unravelling a lifetime of masking, has come to this…I feel trapped in a personality where I must act like a “non autistic” in there eyes..
I feel that autism is everything to me, I’m beginning to accept so many things that my life was, now even when I’m learning more and more positive things about my autism, I feel I can only be myself on my own, in my room….I’m 56years old!
Thank goodness I have my books and sewing….and plushies around me…my fidget toys in the form of teddies and sweets….
im a good mum, despite currant struggles with anxiety, etc…I wish they could simply let me be me.
does anyone else get almost bullied and ridiculed in their own home by family? How do you maintain the genuine you? I want to be Autistic me, or I worry I’ll fall into a burn out….
thank you for my rant, I’m needing maybe some advice please?
