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Hi all,

I hope you are all well.

I am looking to try and get some clarity around how I am as a person.

I was diagnosed as having autism 7 months ago at the age of 35. I also was also diagnosed with anxiety and depression many years ago, and I am medicated for that.

I have tried counselling, CBT, hypnosis, various antidepressants and exercise daily along with a relatively healthy diet, however I still feel sad 95% of the time.

I am happily married, do not have children or debt and have a stable job.

My problem is that i cannot seem to find any acceptance of who I am, and never feel content, constantly chasing a new temporary high, through buying new things or booking holidays, however when these items arrive or I am on the holiday, I still do not feel happy. 

My confusion here is whether the reason I feel this way is due to the autism or the depression.

I was just wondering if anyone can relate, and what their thoughts are on this situation.

My quality of life seems to be getting worse the older I get. When I was in my 20s I managed to socialise regularly (with alcohol), however now I do not, and do not enjoy it when I do. All I think to myself is when can I go home.

I have not spent time with my friends or family this year, and this is starting to lead to them feeling like this is me having an issue with them.

Any advice or input would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you and have a nice day

Parents
  • Sounds like you are missing something that you need more than want. Is there anything you are holding back from pursuing due to self doubt or lack of available free time? With autism it can be difficult for some people to even establish what it is they need. Take a long think and try see if there’s anything that could improve your moods and lower the anxiety levels no matter how small that change may be. Personally I find being alone in nature very healing, it’s a common mention by many autistic people here actually, 

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  • Sounds like you are missing something that you need more than want. Is there anything you are holding back from pursuing due to self doubt or lack of available free time? With autism it can be difficult for some people to even establish what it is they need. Take a long think and try see if there’s anything that could improve your moods and lower the anxiety levels no matter how small that change may be. Personally I find being alone in nature very healing, it’s a common mention by many autistic people here actually, 

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