Hi,
I haven't been on here for quite a while. I'm just testing this thread to see if it works.
[Interlude]
Well, it looks like it has worked.
I'm used to second guessing my own paranoia, especially after being in a psychiatric hospital for longer than was needed and suffering accordingly. I've been unhappily living in the community since discharging myself (twice!) for about 6 months now. Not getting anywhere but all the mental health services do when I'm in distress and call 111 is to keep telling me to go to the doctor to get an autism or ADHD assessment done, as if this will solve everything. So I'm naturally dubious, especially as I've been traumatised anew this past year, but I'm probably progressing from being in outright denial about autism to being sensibly open to the possibility that I might not, under the cover of many years of 'social camouflaging', be as neurotypical as I've tried hard to be. Maybe it's just getting harder to keep that mask on as I struggle in particular moments of crisis, or maybe I genuinely am neurotypical but that I'm in denial about this as much as being in denial about being neurodivergent, if this is possible.
Yes, it is hard at the moment.
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