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Hello I’m Ali. I have ASD and am finding life difficult to cope with. There’s always stuff happening and it always feels really hard to get through it. I always feel things so intensely, even when it’s really not my problem.

Being autistic is hard. It's lonely, isolating and I've not got used to never being able to make friends and fit in anywhere. It feels like I'll be forever lonely. Certain parts of Autism are real downers, no other way of looking at it, but there are some more amazing Autistic traits that I absolutely love!

One of my faves is the intensity of my interests and ability to hyperfocus on them and the things around me...

And I feel things so intently. I feel literally everything! It’s hard to explain but everything has a feeling to it, sometimes it’s bad and other times it’s good. Like when I’m in the woods, I can feel the nature and I hear and smell everything so much more – the bark of the trees, leaves rustling, the smell of wild flowers, the sky above, smelling rain when it falls… hearing the birds, or when the cows moo. I’m really sensitive to feeling things, no one else in my house gets this.

When I get those kinds of feelings and senses, the good ones it’s an amazing feeling. I feel like I’m dancing, singing all within my mind and body. Like my soul is flying through everything and embracing it.
I don’t know if any other Autistics experience this or if it’s just a me thing. If you do experience this or similar I’d love to know!

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  • Welcome Ali!

    I don’t know if any other Autistics experience this or if it’s just a me thing.

    I don’t want to out her, but there is another user on here who can actually taste words from different languages. There is another user with synesthesia, the ability to experience colors when hearing sounds. You’ll find that you’re certainly not alone when it comes to having intense sensory experiences!

    I always feel things so intensely, even when it’s really not my problem.

    I can definitely relate to this. Be warned that on this forum sometimes topics come up about people’s experiences that are less than positive. Ex. There’s a recent thread about looping thoughts that definitely touches on a more painful aspect of ASD. If you feel intense empathy, just be careful not to take some of these topics too seriously!

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  • Welcome Ali!

    I don’t know if any other Autistics experience this or if it’s just a me thing.

    I don’t want to out her, but there is another user on here who can actually taste words from different languages. There is another user with synesthesia, the ability to experience colors when hearing sounds. You’ll find that you’re certainly not alone when it comes to having intense sensory experiences!

    I always feel things so intensely, even when it’s really not my problem.

    I can definitely relate to this. Be warned that on this forum sometimes topics come up about people’s experiences that are less than positive. Ex. There’s a recent thread about looping thoughts that definitely touches on a more painful aspect of ASD. If you feel intense empathy, just be careful not to take some of these topics too seriously!

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  • Thank you. This is reassuring to know! Sometimes I feel like I’m just going potty when I’m seemingly the only one experiencing such things, all of my family are quote “normal” so it can be a bit of a lonely experience when it comes to things like this.
    I’m glad I’m not the only one! Sometimes it can feel like I'm going crazy.

    I can definitely relate to this. Be warned that on this forum sometimes topics come up about people’s experiences that are less than positive. Ex. There’s a recent thread about looping thoughts that definitely touches on a more painful aspect of ASD. If you feel intense empathy, just be careful not to take some of these topics too seriously!

    Thanks for the heads up. I’m a real empathic and I get easily distressed by other people’s trauma, even when I don’t know the person, so that can be difficult managing at times. I’ll try to be careful when looking at threads.