48, diagnosed yesterday, Well, didn’t expect to feel like this !

Good morning all ! 

I was diagnosed 2 days ago with ASD ! Still awaiting my full NHS diagnosis report, but was told on the spot at the end of my first 3.5 appt.

How does everybody deal with this sudden complete overload of you now pulling your 48 years of life to pieces, it’s a nuts combo of emotions, relief, clarity, guilt, anger, resentment, sadness…..and just the overriding questions of what’s this now going to be like and how’s it going to change me and how the hell has nobody historically seen this lol ?

I know there’s no set way of processing this, everybody will be different, just curious to how others, particularly at my age range dealt with it in their first few days and weeks ?

Thanks for reading….

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  • I was 53 and had the initial relief reaction as it gave me sense of "otherness" a name. Obviously to question yourself and review things in your past. 

    I finally got around to telling my wife (3 months later) and she said that it doesn't change who I am, it's just a label.

    I'm still fairly new to it, I received mine just before Christmas, I just like to read and research. I found speaking to a psychologist very helpful, it allowed me to unpack stuff with the help of a non judgemental third party perspective. Before I had my diagnosis I'd been sent to see a psychologist to go through issues I had surrounding depression and anxiety, it became very apparent that much of it was down to the "elephant in the room". 

    As much as it is a relief, it still feels like a weight, something else do deal with . it's part of who I've always been but now it feels somewhat a separate entity (It's really difficult to explain and probably doesn't make a great deal of sense).

    Anyway welcome officially to the late diagnosis club.

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  • I was 53 and had the initial relief reaction as it gave me sense of "otherness" a name. Obviously to question yourself and review things in your past. 

    I finally got around to telling my wife (3 months later) and she said that it doesn't change who I am, it's just a label.

    I'm still fairly new to it, I received mine just before Christmas, I just like to read and research. I found speaking to a psychologist very helpful, it allowed me to unpack stuff with the help of a non judgemental third party perspective. Before I had my diagnosis I'd been sent to see a psychologist to go through issues I had surrounding depression and anxiety, it became very apparent that much of it was down to the "elephant in the room". 

    As much as it is a relief, it still feels like a weight, something else do deal with . it's part of who I've always been but now it feels somewhat a separate entity (It's really difficult to explain and probably doesn't make a great deal of sense).

    Anyway welcome officially to the late diagnosis club.

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