So as an autistic person I love time alone being absorbed in special interests and reading and just being quiet sometimes as work can be pretty full on and tiring and I often feel I am externally quiet yet internally my brain is wired.
Other times I feel quite lonely and distant from my family and I'm not sure if it's something I am doing or if it's just the way an autistic person can feel. I find it hard to explain this because the feelings I have can be very intense. I sometimes think I'm not really sure what the rules are with relationships because I feel like I try really hard to get things right yet end up feeling like I've upset someone.
I seem to think about everything very deeply & worry that my way of being is difficult for people to be around even though I try really hard to fit in and be what is needed. I worry that I come across as disinterested or not caring yet the opposite is true as I love my family very much.
