Middle aged ASD diagnosis.......and stuffed?

Hello,

So after more than half a lifetime of feeling different and never really understanding other people, I have received an ASD diagnosis 3 months shy of my 48th birthday Dizzy face. I have suffered from 'depression and anxiety' throughout adulthood, and have been working my way through the NHS library of SSRIs and SNRIs as each successive medication appeared to lose its efficacy. Fortunately, or unfortunately depending on how you see things, I have been able to mask, compensate and 'sort of manage' too effectively over the years for anyone to ask serious questions until the Covid Lockdowns finally pushed me over the edge.

I kind of understand now how I've ended up where I am, but that doesn't really detract from the frustration of it: getting on for fifty, no 'real' friends, no partner, no plan for the future. And it feels like no time left to do anything about it. As is my way (ha-ha, but not funny) I am desperately trying to work out a plan (my therapist is doing what she can to help), but it feels like I am stuffed.

I'm assuming that someone on here can relate to this?

Parents
  • If it's any consolation I was 56.  Some of us were older than that and you are far from alone in the experience.  

    It will take some time to work through the implications of your diagnosis and not everyone finds that easy.  But welcome and congratulations on finding your truth.

    There is life after late diagnosis and it can be whatever you want it to be, but give yourself time to process.  The discovery is a lot to take in.

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  • If it's any consolation I was 56.  Some of us were older than that and you are far from alone in the experience.  

    It will take some time to work through the implications of your diagnosis and not everyone finds that easy.  But welcome and congratulations on finding your truth.

    There is life after late diagnosis and it can be whatever you want it to be, but give yourself time to process.  The discovery is a lot to take in.

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