Hi, I'm new to the forum.
I'm still school age, and my brother is autistic. I haven't got an official diagnosis, but I have a lot of symptoms of autism, and I have talked to a specialist who agrees that there is a strong likelihood that I'm autistic. I feel like I'm acting all the time (including to my parents), and I don't know how to stop. I'm so many different personalities at the moment and it's exhausting trying to keep up. I'm a different person in all my subjects and I don't really know who I am any more. I used to only mask at school but now I can't face my parents any more, so I don't have any down time where I can recharge. My parents don't know that I think I might be autistic, because they spend quite a lot of time on my brother (which I don't blame them for at all). Occasionally I have meltdowns that I call panic attacks at school when the music is too loud or the lights are too bright or the temperature is too hot, but other than that no one knows that I might not be normal. And I'm not sure how long I can keep that up for. Any tips on how to stop acting (at least part of the time)? Should I tell my parents what I think or should I go through my school? I don't want to worry them - my brother is going through a difficult patch right now. Thanks.