The Aspie Within the woman

Hello I have just Joined this site.  At the direction and recommendation from the latest psychologist who has been sent to work with me or " sort me out " as the case maybe  well good luck with that ! I am on approximately at a guess therapist number 17 this one has lasted longer than all the rest because she buys me coffee  . Grrrrr !! I am very frustrated on the simple fact of the invention of windows 8 this is the current bain of my life along with the world being a large ball of spinning beauty inhabitated by humans who I  simply seem to confuse or scare the *** out of or completely irritate and piss off  , I am not proud by any means . To achieve the opposite outcome in a conversation is a skill I have mastered I have had 35 years experience . Anyways I just wanted to say Hello to people as apparently I need to stop being such a hermit and instead of focusing on hacking into Wikipedia I need to start being around people "more like me" apparently  and be more well erm........... Sociable so Hello everybody . I hope this introduction went Ok any thoughts gratefully recieved .

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  • Thanks Pink68 I do try my best with things very Kind words so Thank you say hi to your daughter for me !  . and Longman I have a relatively unique communication style which involves Bulldozing and Monopolizing any group of people you sure as hell know Im in it as a rule never been a wall flower I go straight in and then chaos erupts I need to learn the wall flower technique . Stand at the side and Observe instead of CONTROL tactics I think if I monopolize conversations then I dont have to communicate on a two way level I do it all the time . I have a mouth like a Machine Gun my dad reckons . I am getting more aware of it. I hate social situations its the nerves makes me act like a complete Twaat and people think who the hell was that who ordered the CLOWN ? I panic then I over compensate then I control then it all goes wrong then I think *** it try again next time I am trying its just not easy is it when the first question is how the hell do I handle this ! and my answer has always been My way ! I did this at school I have not grown out of it I seriously have to start to learn to be doing better. thing is Aspergers was never about in the 1990's and I was just labelled the child of all challenge and behavioural problems as for the communication style If I had not of been put in such a Catholic school of the forgiving by going to confession  I'd of been out on my ***. But I learnt everyday to confess my sins and all was forgiven till the next time and so it went on and on and on I no longer confess my sins I try make light of them and just keep brushing myself down getting back up and moving on . Its just a shame people around me dont do the same but apparently throwing a large stone in a river sinks to the bottom and Im fine but I create ripples and this is often the point I am long gone onto another subject another disaster I just try to be happy but I understand I can be hurtful and selfish I am not because If I know people are upset I am sorry I just not a mind reader I do tend to need things spelt out explained or written down  

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  • Thanks Pink68 I do try my best with things very Kind words so Thank you say hi to your daughter for me !  . and Longman I have a relatively unique communication style which involves Bulldozing and Monopolizing any group of people you sure as hell know Im in it as a rule never been a wall flower I go straight in and then chaos erupts I need to learn the wall flower technique . Stand at the side and Observe instead of CONTROL tactics I think if I monopolize conversations then I dont have to communicate on a two way level I do it all the time . I have a mouth like a Machine Gun my dad reckons . I am getting more aware of it. I hate social situations its the nerves makes me act like a complete Twaat and people think who the hell was that who ordered the CLOWN ? I panic then I over compensate then I control then it all goes wrong then I think *** it try again next time I am trying its just not easy is it when the first question is how the hell do I handle this ! and my answer has always been My way ! I did this at school I have not grown out of it I seriously have to start to learn to be doing better. thing is Aspergers was never about in the 1990's and I was just labelled the child of all challenge and behavioural problems as for the communication style If I had not of been put in such a Catholic school of the forgiving by going to confession  I'd of been out on my ***. But I learnt everyday to confess my sins and all was forgiven till the next time and so it went on and on and on I no longer confess my sins I try make light of them and just keep brushing myself down getting back up and moving on . Its just a shame people around me dont do the same but apparently throwing a large stone in a river sinks to the bottom and Im fine but I create ripples and this is often the point I am long gone onto another subject another disaster I just try to be happy but I understand I can be hurtful and selfish I am not because If I know people are upset I am sorry I just not a mind reader I do tend to need things spelt out explained or written down  

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