Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone,
I am Mark. I hope this message finds you all well. I want to connect with others who might be feeling the same way that I do. I am not sure if I am looking to make friends or create lasting connections. I sometimes wish I could talk to some one when I am in trouble. Someone maybe, could guide me? I would at least like to know what shouldn't do. Or maybe, just talk about things.
Perhaps we could talk about films. I almost never miss a movie in the cinemas. I'm just not really into tv shows and series. Its just I hate to stop in the middle, and I might end up binge-watching the whole thing and I have a really bad perception of time.
I like listening to music. I like Linkin Park, Led Zeppelin, Queen, AC/DC, ABBA, Deep Purple, Madonna, Tame Impala, etc. (please suggest me some artists, if you find similar songs interesting.)
I take long nature walks, museums, parks. I like animals. I always go to a nearby park and feed squirrels, or ducks.
I wouldn't say I don't like social interactions. I just don't like it when I don't know what to do. Or when people don't split the bill.( I know you are trying to be nice, but it's going to bug me for days). I like board games.
I understand we're all in different stages of life and have our own unique personalities and needs, And I am open to any opinion you have and I completely respect that. I am just trying to find a way to fit in somewhere, and I have no idea what I am.
Looking forward to hearing your thoughts and perhaps getting to know some of you better. Feel free to share your experiences, insights, or even your own journey in seeking friendship.
Warm regards,
Mark1289
I'm not the best at making friends but u should always be urself. U sound nice so I hope your make some friends soon
I love films what's ur fave one? I recently watched Barbie with my sisters. First time I went to cinema in ages but we all really enjoyed it
I'm not great at being social but I think under the difficult autism circumstances we do ok
HI Emmy,
Thanks for replying. Being me is complicated. Its really difficult to start a conversation. In a group setting, I'll be standing in the corner and taking to myself, unless someone decides to talk to me. Sometimes I am surprised by my ability to go on weeks, without talking to a single person. Even when I am talking to someone I can't make eye contact. I look at their shoes or somewhere else. Which people find weird. Like I am not interested. Which I could be. But I don't want to look at their face.
My top films favourites are:
I watched Barbie too. It was too cartoonish, which sounds right for a movie about a kid's toy. And the musicals and synchronised dance was so ridiculous. I loved it. I liked the whole move, but I am not sure about the speech parts. I don't know how to feel about it.
I still not convinced autism is what's wrong with me. There is something really wrong about me deep inside. I really do wish it is autism though. As much I want to deny it, the may be autistic part kept me alive so far. So I am giving it a try.
Thanks Emmy.
I'm sorry u struggle with this but I totally do relate with a lot of what u say espech with social interactions I can't start a convo either and if people talk to me my brain just freezes and I gawp LMAO no idea what to say or do. Real awkward at school espech when I'm paired with someone in class
Ur not weird just different and that's totally fine. I wasnt completely sure I was autistic at first they just thought I was depressed and anxious which I am LOL but they said autism in the end
When I was diagnosed the assessment lady said I would be confused after and yeh I still am now I think that's probably natural to be feeling its a big change to take in