Published on 12, July, 2020
Late 70s. Always found social interaction disconcerting, scary, uninteresting and/or threatening. This has made me feel guilty about it, ie there ‘has to be something wrong with me.’ Was it caused and/or aggravated by a socially abusive father or was I born with it? I had to ‘go into myself’ in order to survive and feel secure. As a result I have developed considerable inner strength, enjoy my own company, am happy in my own skin and live what I consider to be a full satisfying lifestyle. Just occasionally however I wonder if I haven’t missed out on something in life and if so what.
That is very good to hear that you have adapted and made a life that suits you and that you are able to find peace and happiness in.You have helped me anyway as my son has aspbergers and gets down about it but I remind him that when he is older as he is only 23 that he may feel differently and come to find peace in his life. Also you are 100% correct as because you didn't know that you had aspbergers you would have thought the problems lay with you personally and yes felt guilty etc...but now you know not to feel guilty but its a shame you felt like that. Its hard to know that if you had known life would have been different better??? I have known many different variations of people friends of mine and there kids etc and some knew some didn't etc.but there does not seem to be one set way that works out for the best and in fact some people who did find out early on it actually devastated there lives.