Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi all,
So on Monday this week I was given the news that I “satisfy the criteria for a diagnosis of ASD”. I’ve always felt “on the outside” in life, and took the decision to look into a diagnosis last year after becoming so overwhelmed at a family wedding that I felt like I needed to run out of the building.
I spoke with my GP, who was really understanding. I completed an AQ50 test and on the GP’s advice went through the Right to Choose ASD process with Psychiatry UK. I was sent some forms to complete, and then had a few months to wait before my assessment appointment.
By the time my appointment came around, I was feeling in a much better place than when I first started seeking a diagnosis. I’d basically convinced myself that I would just be wasting the psychiatrist’s time, and would be sent away with my tail between my legs for wasting their time.
So I was pretty taken aback when I got the news that I did in fact meet the criteria.
It’s been a bit of a mad week since the diagnosis. I’ve alternated between feeling like I’m imagining things and they’ve got it wrong, and re-examining my entire life through this whole new lens.
I’m just curious as to whether this is a common reaction amongst the recently diagnosed or not?
I haven't been diagnosed yet but had the big moment of realization back in December when all my struggles seemed to make sense. And yes i re-examined / reflected on my whole life with the new lens.
Something came to me the other day actually. It was either the last time i stimmed in front of anyone, or one of the last times. I got in my dads car when it was parked outside our house and rubbed my hands together.....he laughed and said "have you come into lots of money or something?" and i don't think i've ever done it again in front of anyone
I'm also planning on getting assessed through Psychiatry UK. Just waiting to hear back from a local medical charity who might be able to help fund the initial £900 consultation fee