I've realised I have an issue with where I'm actually not sure what I'm doing or if I like them. I get really into things to the point of obsession, research and buy then don't know what's meant to happen next. I've recently spent ~£500+ on used dolls over 6 months I really like, but now I don't know what to do. I have 5 sewing machines. In fact the sewing machines is a great example. I had a sewing machine, but decided to by aa stronger vintage Singer. Ii watch videos and got caught up in the mechanical and repair side of them. I bought an old one, repaired it, but had spare parts, then got 2 more broken ones to repair with the spare parts I had, then another one which was a hand wheel. I seem to get to a "what happens next" part where I realise that I don't feel relaxes or happy because I'm just surrounded by stuff I don't know what to do with and there is so much of it. I'm not a social person, so the part where you show stuff to groups and go on forums just gives me anxiety. I also live a small flat so I don't have much room. I just feel like everything I do end sup being work and I get exhausted. I can't take holidays without things to do as I don't understand the relaxing sitting around part. I need to study or work out. Does anyone else go through this?
