Help

Hello I'm ben

I've been struggling with autism and adulthood for years. Like I forget simple things if other things happen in between. Or find myself rather clumsy at times. I am worried about losing friends because I'm lazy or doing it on purpose but I'm not. I just seem to have these things happen around me. Today has been bad because I've stopped living with them and gone back to living with my dad. I just need to start getting help but have no idea where to get it. I wonder others are going through the same thing.