Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello I am a 58 year old man who was diagnosed with having autism Aspergers 3 years ago.All my life I felt something was wrong with me and as a young boy this was put down to being very quiet and shy.However as the years passed by my mood level changed and as an adult I find it very hard to be in a happy place which has brought extreme pressure on my wife and I throughout our marriage.I tend to be short tempered and very judgemental without often knowing the facts in any situation.I have attended therapy sessions with other like minded autistic adults and because of this I know I’m not alone in the way I behave around others but it doesn’t excuse my behaviour.Even taking anti depressants daily do little to help how I feel and act,I just felt that maybe sharing my thoughts with others in a similar situation may help me in some way.
society is judgemental, and thus you judge back equally as harsh perhaps?i have though on this myself as i recognize myself to be judgemental.... i thought perhaps its because we live in such a judgemental society that judges us we just perhaps snap and then twist that mirror around to judge society in return for we find it lacking and mediocre when it bigs itself up and puts us down, so perhaps could be a reaction to a judgemental society and judging it in return, for society is full of mediocrity despite how harsh it judges others and pretends to be a proffesional society off which it really isnt, everyone is just winging it not sure what they are doing really.
That's not what enlightened beings say. They say that the outer world we experience is a reflection of our inner world. What we experience as reality is merely a mirror, reflecting back at us our inner world. The true meaning of Karma. Cause and effect. Your inner world (beliefs, judgments, assumptions, opinions) is the cause, and the world outside (relationships, events, circumstances, situations) is the effect.
Hi caelus
Thankyou for responding it is nice to get a response that does make sense to me.I have achieved a lot in life considering my diagnosis and presently hold a foreman position within a large company but not a day goes by that I don’t get anxious with life in general and as you have said yourself winging it on a daily basis is exactly what I am doing.