Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi I'm LJ I've been looking at this site for a few months now and after a not great day I thought I'd try and put something on here. I dont really know how to put all this down so bare with me. So I read maybe a book a day, I'm very much a loner who likes my own company, I hate social interactions I become very anxious. I cant make on the moment decisions, my partner has to give me a days notice really if she wants to do anything, I have to get my head round things. I dont really have any feelings towards people, my uncle had a heart attack not long back and I felt nothing. I struggle voicing what I think or feel. I need routines and I like things done the same way. I became aware of autism in a character I was reading and I could relate. I become very anxious about things that i struggle to get my words out. I went to the doctor about this and he sent me for counselling which has helped a bit. She agreed with the autism traits but didn't want to confirm. I did an online test and it said that I was, but i dont know to trust that or not. I've not told anybody about this apart from my partner who is very supportive. But I told my only friend and 3 weeks later I've not had a response which I think had made me a bit well I dont know. So I was wandering if from your knowledge that you think autism sounds correct. I think I'd feel at ease a bit without keep trying to fit in and I can relax a bit more if this makes sense. Sorry I know I've gone on a bit.
Sounds probable.
In some ways it doesn't matter. If you find reading stuff here helpful, then stay here, engage and learn. And if reading other stuff on autism/asperger helpful then do that.
I told my closest friend and he's said nothing about it too. My guess is he's autistic too, and he doesn't want to go there himself.
If the test was the Autism (previously Asperger) Quotient Test online then scores of 32 and above are very reliable. I read the academic paper and stats behind it which were really credible with good methodology, data sizes, etc. From memory 26-31 scores have a 86% chance of being diagnosed autustic if the person goes for an assesment.
And if you're happy enough, then don't pathologise a thing that's not negatively affecting your life. I'm mostly happy enough, but have 3-4 traits that do negatively affect me and I'm trying to learn my way around them. Otherwise i mostly laugh at my autism.