Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone and thank you for reading this, if you do!
I am Lythiah (not my real name) and I am a student, doing my bachelors degree in design right now. So it's quite stressful for me at the moment.
Anyways, I signed up here because I am not sure about myself. Actually I am seeking for advice! I've been struggling my whole life with issues like:- I aleays felt different as a kid and prefered books over people - I hated family gatherings, they where exhausting- my family always described me as "too sensitive" and "thinking too much" (and they never believed me when i said i could taste the plastic if food was in plastic boxes)- I always felt "slower" than other kids when it comes to understanding... everything- I really really have a problem with other people touching my stuff though I know they're not doing anything- I hate texting, so bad, it is so exhausting - I never understood certain school subjects like literature or history, they barely make sense to me or I understand them wrong - I love routines- I love learning and logic - I have extreme mood switches, like I am doing ok and suddenly everything is too much and my whole system breaks down and I can't function properly - I like to eat the same food everyday and I love it everyday - I had this thing I used to do as a kid... shaking my hands when I imagined stuff (makes it somehow easier) and I sometimes still do it if I am alone.... - and I like weird stuff and I am sad that nobody wants to talk about my weird things And still I struggle with getting overwhelmed so easily. I have no certain problems with conversations. Actually I like them. They are just exhausting.
All of these things make me consider wether I am on the spectrum or not... but I am not sure because I can only relate to certain parts. It is just... now that I've discovered this so many things made sense but I don't want to use it as an "excuse". I hope you can undertand what I mean. I don't want to offend anyone.
It really would mean a lot to me, if some of you could share your experiences with me! Thank you for reading this!
I'm by no means an expert since I was just diagnosed myself but from your list I think enough of it sounds familiar that you might want to raise it with your GP and ask for a referral to a service that can diagnose you. Personally, I have many similar issues but didn't believe I was autistic, either. I'd especially get it addressed if these things are causing you issues functioning like everyone else can. Hope this was of some help :)