Published on 12, July, 2020
Hi
I'm in my late forties, married with three children I work for in IT for the NHS.
I've been recently diagnosed as ASD, although my wife and then myself have suspected this for years.
With diagnosis comes acceptance which is proving anything but straightforward but at least the am I or aren't if moments have gone. At least now I can see why I acted as I have done and said what I have said overcome life.
Work and family pressure over the last few years has led to me displaying more and more autistic behaviour as making has become more difficult. I also worry that as I am getting older I have less energy reserves. This leaves me having more meltdowns or withdrawals as I struggle to cope with rapidly changing situations both at work and at home.
Cheers
Colin
Hello, welcome and thanks for your introduction. I also feel that my 'burnout quotient' as I call it, is increasing as I get older.
I am sure my father was an undiagnosed autistic, he suffered a burnout in his 50s that I never understood, but do now.
Looking back I think I've had a few "burnouts" over the years (even at school). I've always been lucky and had someone or something rescue me.
I think I have too. I used to call them my "crashes". I used to wish i could wipe the slate and start again.
I blew my GCSE years at school as my head of year said I couldn't do Computer Studies with poor handwriting, which makes no sense because with that logic I couldn't do any subject. So I didn't do any subject and came away with nothing. I was incredibly good at Elite though as while my Mum and Dad thought I was doing homework, I was actually playing on the family BBC micro which I'd moved into my bedroom (no one else knew how to use it).