Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello, I'm Sam, I'm 29 years old and a Male. I have not been diagnosed with ASD or any similar traits thereof. I have lived my life feeling different and constantly 'stupider' and 'weirder' than my peers for lack of a better term. I had a bit of a melt down prior to work a month or so ago and I called in sick, and following this spoke to some friends and family about everything and it was pointed out that I have traits to Autism, something my parents always thought but for some reason never chose to follow it up with a doctor. I have spent the past month researching every paragraph and watching every video and I feel I fit in to 'high functioning' ASD with chameleon, or camofluaging, traits as I have spent the majority of my life covering up my eccentricities once they had been recognised, to appear more normal. The issue is I am deathly afraid of being wrong, always. I cannot find any literature on males camofluaging Autistic traits, it seems very much agreed this is a female thing. I am scared of approaching the GP in case they say 'no you're wrong, this isnt this, there isnt anything wrong' because I dont feel settled with that answer
Can anyone help? Does anyone have any answers or experiences the same as mine as an adult male?
Many thanks
Hey Sam, ASD is complex so don’t worry too much about trying to fit yourself into a single box... the chances are you have a number of different traits and these traits in turn impact personality and so forth. Anxiety is tricky especially if you fear being told differently and I don’t know what best to recommend. I am happy to share my experiences, talk traits etc, if you’d rather do it privately send me a direct message :) what I will say is be confident in who you are, the labels are inconsequential:) Like I said, here if you need me :)