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Diagnosed over a year ago

ExPrat

Hi, my name is Ash. 35 year old male.

I was diagnosed over a year ago with Aspergers.

I guess I have been in denial for over a year up until recently when I finally got off all medicines, antidepressants, antipsychotics and benzodiazepines (which getting off was a two year process that I was put on for depression and anxiety 15 years ago) and then alcohol 7 weeks ago.

It wasn’t until I got off alcohol 7 weeks ago I came to accept it when I decided to make an effort and go out more on my own up town. Spent over a thousand on clothes etc which seems a waste as without drink my social skills are completely embarrassing. Worse than I imagined and worse that have been through in the past. The cringe is unforgivable.

Had plenty of girls want to talk to me etc but as soon as I open my mouth I screw it up.

Anyways sitting in a pub up town now back on the drink and thought I would just introduce myself. Nice to meet you all.

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  • Hey everyone thank you for the reply’s. it couldn’t of came at a better time. With my orange juice and lemonade I had been working on this girl who works in this bar about half a mile from where I am now in another bar.

    I had not drank for 7 weeks. I drank in this one bar and made a point of not going to the bar where this girl works tonight but I guess karma or whatever took over. 

    Walking to where I am now for the first time I saw her out on the street (she was walking to work) she smiled at me (our conversation had been minimum all this time) so I approached her.. the B****t just flowed out my mouth... worlds biggest cringe. Ended in “ I will see you later “ that was about an hour ago and still can’t get over it. I think I better stay on the dl for a while. 

    Nice to meet you all and taxi for me I guess lol

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  • Hey everyone thank you for the reply’s. it couldn’t of came at a better time. With my orange juice and lemonade I had been working on this girl who works in this bar about half a mile from where I am now in another bar.

    I had not drank for 7 weeks. I drank in this one bar and made a point of not going to the bar where this girl works tonight but I guess karma or whatever took over. 

    Walking to where I am now for the first time I saw her out on the street (she was walking to work) she smiled at me (our conversation had been minimum all this time) so I approached her.. the B****t just flowed out my mouth... worlds biggest cringe. Ended in “ I will see you later “ that was about an hour ago and still can’t get over it. I think I better stay on the dl for a while. 

    Nice to meet you all and taxi for me I guess lol

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  • in reply to ExPrat

    Be yourself and stay hopeful - when you meet the right person the relationship thing will work out OK. At 35 you've got lots of years ahead of you to enjoy.

    Looking back on my life I can see how relationships might have been different had I understood myself better, but by sheer luck I have ended up married for the second time and OK!

    I've put a Tom Waits record on the Virtual Jukebox thread. This reminds me of the anguish of having feelings for someone and trying to get close to them without messing it up!