Hello everyone I hope you are ok and your day is going well or ok at least,
Recently I have been feeling really confused; one minute wanting to go a run the next wanting to go to bed and watch movies and sleep and when I cant decide what to do I get very upset and kind of lose it. I dont know whats going on with me, and if this is just my aspergers or if there is something else wrong? I keep getting really upset over little things, and they start to bother me then really upset me. I am always doing things wrong with friends, like saying the wrong thing when I think I am helping them when in fact I am making it worse Im just not aware of it at the time until someome sits down with me and explains it to me.
I dont know if this is just me being stupid and lazy, or if this is normal for an autistic person? Everything is just hitting me at once and I feel like crying always. I got my diagnosis on Friday, is it meant to make you feel confused?
Everything right now just seems so overwhelming, especially school as I seem to always do the wrong thing, without meaning and I really just want to fit in and have friends. Why does it have to be so hard, and I am getting so annoyed at myself for always messing things up and feeling paranoid 24/7 if people like me or not.
My mum and dad are trying to be supportive but I feel so bad when I do things wrong, and I get annoyed at them because I apparently "over-read" their facial expressions which I find frustrating. Its also bad timing because my nan is dying, she suffers from dementia and I feel so bad and guilty when I should be focusing on her right now not me. What should I do about friends and continuously saying or doing the wrong thing? How can I control my anger better? Is it normal to be overwhelmed by everything and continously changing my mind? Any info would be great, and thank you for listening to me ramble x
