New and getting diagnosis

hello,

I'm new to this forum. I am 54 years old and have had (yesterday), the first part of a two-stage diagnostic process. 

The consultant was very nice, but I feel quite flat about the whole thing. It was almost like I had to justify myself. I recognise much of the Asperger characteristics and it has helped me understand a lot of my life up to now. The next part of the process takes place in a month and will involve "things to do". I'm not sure what this means. I am feeling anxious about the whole thing now. Another thing to fuel anxiety.

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  • Oh, dear. Double post & the rest of my original got wiped? Site a bit cranky?

    As I was saying...I used alcohol and other drugs for years to try to stop the anxiety. I simply thought that I was bad / mad, etc. I became resigned to being mostly unhappy and not fitting in. I've been to a CBT based rehab for a few months & haven't had a drink or a drug for nearly 6 months now. This was helpful. As I said, I became resigned to, "well, this is how I am, this is how it is to me". That eventually led to me attempting to kill myself, waking up very angry in hospital, being spotted by an alert professional and referred for diagnosis. At first I didn't like the idea, but it makes so much sense of the rest of my life. There's a good book on Asperger's and Alcohol by Hendricx and Tynsley. My life is so similar to Tynsley's that it is uncanny. He describes a lot of his life and how he coped and bar the actual differences in location and careers, he could be describing my life!

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  • Oh, dear. Double post & the rest of my original got wiped? Site a bit cranky?

    As I was saying...I used alcohol and other drugs for years to try to stop the anxiety. I simply thought that I was bad / mad, etc. I became resigned to being mostly unhappy and not fitting in. I've been to a CBT based rehab for a few months & haven't had a drink or a drug for nearly 6 months now. This was helpful. As I said, I became resigned to, "well, this is how I am, this is how it is to me". That eventually led to me attempting to kill myself, waking up very angry in hospital, being spotted by an alert professional and referred for diagnosis. At first I didn't like the idea, but it makes so much sense of the rest of my life. There's a good book on Asperger's and Alcohol by Hendricx and Tynsley. My life is so similar to Tynsley's that it is uncanny. He describes a lot of his life and how he coped and bar the actual differences in location and careers, he could be describing my life!

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