Panic

I decided I didn't want to wait for the GP and getting caught up in the system.

I want to know one way or the other.

So I found someone who can do a pre-assesment privately. I really want to use it just as a starting point.

I've been given a date. Now Im panicing. Not in terms of what the result might be, but that it is accurate, that I present myself properly warts and all, that the assessor will see through any masks I put on, and accurately diagnose. Then there's the bit of me that says have I built this up too much? I think I have problems, people around me say it's normal behaviour and I just need to practice. What if Im a fraud and given over one image of myself and everyones really disappointed in me and it's a big waste of time because it's found that Im just actually normal? Then there's the waste in time and money.

Scared.

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  • Being mid-diagnosis myself, I too have suffered from impostor syndrome and was nervous about my referral and screening appointments for many reasons. But the professionals involved were incredibly knowledgable and sensitive to the point where both appointments went from being terrifying to actually enjoyable after a few minutes.

    Stressing about new situations may be something you suffer with so there's nothing I can say to fix that, but please try and relax. These people are there to help and to try their best to service an area of health care that they are passionate about. They aren't there to catch you out. If it were obvious whether we were on the spectrum or not, we'd just work it out ourselves. They are there to answer that question, so it's always valid for anyone to ASK that question.

    By the way, I'm not rain man lol. I have a satifying and well paying job. I own a house and a nice car. I enjoy some expensive hobbies and have friends who I love dearly and I get the impression some of them may even like meback! :) My point is just because you pass as a functioning adult, doesn't mean you don't have very real and very hidden problems caused by being on the spectrum. And try to believe this: getting an answer is far more valuable than what the answer is. All the best with your journey.

    I hope this helps in some small way.

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  • Being mid-diagnosis myself, I too have suffered from impostor syndrome and was nervous about my referral and screening appointments for many reasons. But the professionals involved were incredibly knowledgable and sensitive to the point where both appointments went from being terrifying to actually enjoyable after a few minutes.

    Stressing about new situations may be something you suffer with so there's nothing I can say to fix that, but please try and relax. These people are there to help and to try their best to service an area of health care that they are passionate about. They aren't there to catch you out. If it were obvious whether we were on the spectrum or not, we'd just work it out ourselves. They are there to answer that question, so it's always valid for anyone to ASK that question.

    By the way, I'm not rain man lol. I have a satifying and well paying job. I own a house and a nice car. I enjoy some expensive hobbies and have friends who I love dearly and I get the impression some of them may even like meback! :) My point is just because you pass as a functioning adult, doesn't mean you don't have very real and very hidden problems caused by being on the spectrum. And try to believe this: getting an answer is far more valuable than what the answer is. All the best with your journey.

    I hope this helps in some small way.

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