Anxiety and Depression

All my life due to having AS i have been picked on and bullied. I kind of get depressed because i'm usually lonely since it's hard for AS people to make friends. I also get scared of paranoid of people when I go out because I think they will make fun of me, so I try and avoid going out unless I really have too :( Does anyone else have these problems?

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  • I read one of your other posts Darth Reagan and you said you grew up in a small village...exactly my experience. I have out of control paranoia sometimes...do you think small village life encourages this? I used to walk around our village in a set pattern for hours on end late at night and I never thought anything about it but then somebody mentioned seeing me, finding it funny, and it was like my whole world had caved in. Was everyone now watching me and having a good old laugh? 

    Anyway, what you say about insensitivity and pouring over their motivations endlessly is something I managed to talk myself out of...I just kept telling myself over and over that most people have more going on than to be scrutinising my behaviour...however it hasn't stopped the paranoia generally...is small village life perhaps worse for Aspies when they get to adulthood than the anonymity of the town or city?

    I am still going through the diagnosis process I should add but at the last session, my psychiatrist said I definitely had Aspie traits. Still in the balance I think. Can't stop obsessing over it though...

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  • I read one of your other posts Darth Reagan and you said you grew up in a small village...exactly my experience. I have out of control paranoia sometimes...do you think small village life encourages this? I used to walk around our village in a set pattern for hours on end late at night and I never thought anything about it but then somebody mentioned seeing me, finding it funny, and it was like my whole world had caved in. Was everyone now watching me and having a good old laugh? 

    Anyway, what you say about insensitivity and pouring over their motivations endlessly is something I managed to talk myself out of...I just kept telling myself over and over that most people have more going on than to be scrutinising my behaviour...however it hasn't stopped the paranoia generally...is small village life perhaps worse for Aspies when they get to adulthood than the anonymity of the town or city?

    I am still going through the diagnosis process I should add but at the last session, my psychiatrist said I definitely had Aspie traits. Still in the balance I think. Can't stop obsessing over it though...

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