It's been the exact same throught my life so far - where I always feel and assume I'm appreciated until I find out otherwise through hearing them talk bad about me behind my back or excluding me from group chats etc. I love talking to people and making friends but it feels like people just don't want to know me, I remember my autism team saying it's temporary and I've just had a bit of a bad experience still seeing I'm quite young but it's all that I know - spending so much time getting to know people and trying to fit in when they never liked me in the first place but never had enough respect to tell me to my face. My biggest fear is being a loner but it's not like I really have anywhere else to go
