Isolation

Hello, new member on this forum. I have ASD, OCD, BDD and waiting on an ADHD diagnosis.

Aside from a weekly appointment with therapy and a monthly phone call with a disability advisor I've found myself in a situation where I'm completely isolated, and feel lost and depressed.

Is there anyone else here in that situation, and if so, how do you cope?

I've gradually found myself withdrawing from society because of my morals, the way I view the world and social issues. I've done a fair amount of voluntary work in the past but ultimately I've found charity work is no different to any other type of work in terms of interacting with other people and the drama and social issues that comes with ASD.

We live in a society where we're expected to integrate with each other regardless of how that makes us feel, and it's set up so the only option is to serve and be dependent on the state. If not you're pretty much made to feel useless and worthless to society.

I do have hobbies which are severely limited to what I feel is right or wrong, and feel like I'm living the same day over and over with no real reason or purpose. But on the other hand I don't have the stress of friendships, relationships and acquaintances which have brought me to this point. If I died in my sleep tonight nobody would know for weeks, months, longer, and that scares me.

If you are in the same situation any advice, help or ideas or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.

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  • I know what you mean, solitary_soul. It’s got to the point where the only time I interact with the outside world is when I pop up to the local Tesco Express to grab some bits and pieces. Things like hospital and dental appointments are the other times I’m forced to go out. It’s so bad now that I get terrified of some drama, like at the dentist’s, where reception might keep you waiting, which makes me wonder if they’re doing it on purpose to humiliate me. Probably not, but that’s how it feels sometimes. Funny thing is, I’m fine with the actual dentists because at least you’re being dealt with, even though it’s not a pleasant experience. But I worry more about the potential social drama than the treatment itself!

    Does that mean I’m on the spectrum? I’m not sure, since I’ve never been tested, and it might not be autism but an anxiety condition. I wish I knew.

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  • I know what you mean, solitary_soul. It’s got to the point where the only time I interact with the outside world is when I pop up to the local Tesco Express to grab some bits and pieces. Things like hospital and dental appointments are the other times I’m forced to go out. It’s so bad now that I get terrified of some drama, like at the dentist’s, where reception might keep you waiting, which makes me wonder if they’re doing it on purpose to humiliate me. Probably not, but that’s how it feels sometimes. Funny thing is, I’m fine with the actual dentists because at least you’re being dealt with, even though it’s not a pleasant experience. But I worry more about the potential social drama than the treatment itself!

    Does that mean I’m on the spectrum? I’m not sure, since I’ve never been tested, and it might not be autism but an anxiety condition. I wish I knew.

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