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I avoid doing things that don't play to my strengths, I'm lucky that I'm in a position to do so now. I've spent years stubbing my toes on the things I seem unable to do, even if others find them simple, all I got was sore feet. I will give new things a go, but I dont' beat myself up if I can't do them, even when others tell me I should for some nebulous reason best known to themselves.

I have some synaethesia too, I've never been formally diagnosed, but I do taste colours and textures, like an over cooked fried egg tases like a net curtain.

Sometimes people ask me if I don't think I'm stuck in a rut, but I tell them, no, I'm comfortably ploughing my own furrow!

When ever people want me to do something, often my first response is 'what for, whats in it for me?', I know this sounds incredibly selfish, but it's been part of the learning to say no process. That not to say I won't do things, even if I can't see the point or don't understand whats being asked of me.

The difference between being stuck and ploughing on your own, is whether you'd like to change but can't, don't know how or are too scared.

If you're content, then it's all fine. It is good to have the confidence to do your own thing.

But also beware lying to yourself and pretending all is fine, if it's not,  just because it is easier.

This is a general point, I'm not saying it applies to TheCatWoman 

I think a lot of people seem to want change for changes sake, like the adreniline junkies who think every one must challenge themselves with extreme sports or something similar, it's fine if thats what they want to do, but those of us who don't should be respected to and not feel bullied. For me theres no such thing as good adreniline, only bad, I have PTSD, so adreniline surges are extreme and leave me feeling exhausted and they can take days to recover from.

Then theres the people who seem to want to change thier physical surroundings all the time, move furniture about, paint things, throw stuff out and get new stuff, (funny how it's always my stuff that gets thrown out). I find coming home to a new house layout or half done decorating really discombobulating. And the latest trend isn't always one I like, like maximalism, clashing colours and patterns that look like the inside of a migraine, no I think not.

I've had so much change in my life that I'm quite happy for this phase to be quiet and relatively unchallenging

I think a lot of people seem to want change for changes sake, like the adreniline junkies who think every one must challenge themselves with extreme sports or something similar, it's fine if thats what they want to do, but those of us who don't should be respected to and not feel bullied. For me theres no such thing as good adreniline, only bad, I have PTSD, so adreniline surges are extreme and leave me feeling exhausted and they can take days to recover from.

Then theres the people who seem to want to change thier physical surroundings all the time, move furniture about, paint things, throw stuff out and get new stuff, (funny how it's always my stuff that gets thrown out). I find coming home to a new house layout or half done decorating really discombobulating. And the latest trend isn't always one I like, like maximalism, clashing colours and patterns that look like the inside of a migraine, no I think not.

I've had so much change in my life that I'm quite happy for this phase to be quiet and relatively unchallenging