Hi all, just at the beginning of my journey.

Hi there all, my name is Joe. I am 34 years old and I have always known I was different. I never really understood why, but for some reason, my outlook on the world always seemed different from others.

I honestly don't know if I have aspergers, but there was some question about this when I was younger, and it was never followed up. In the last four years, I have met about 6 people who have aspergers, and they have come up to me, and presumed I had it, and just started talking to me as though I have. I have also met peope who work with people with autism, and they have commented that I have all thew classic traits. This is always totally unsolicited.

Does this mean I have aspergers, no of course not. But it did get me thinking.

So I am now at the point in my life where I want answers. Appart from always having difficulties fitting in, I have difficulty maintaining relationships with other people. I have had problems staying in full time employment, and often find it hard to communicate with other people.

I don't know what the future holds, or if I will be able to identify exactly what my difficulties are. But the more I read about aspergers, and talk to people to have it, the more I see that this would explain lirerally all of my life difficulties. Some things are just too specific to be anything else.

Or to put it anoher way, I have always had problems, but the term 'aspergers' in my opinion is the only description I have ever come across that encompasses all of the ways I struggle in life.

My issue is this. I have issues with my doctor. I really don't feel comfortable talking to him. In truth, I always seem to struggle talking to medical profesionals. The irony is, I think that it is my issues with this condition that are causing the difficulty :?

Is there any other way of getting tested, other than to go through your GP?

Anyway, just wanted to reach out and say hi.

Best of luck on your journeys.

Peace

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  • Im 33 and seem to find myself in a similar position atm. I keep coming back to the problem that Aspergers seems to describe me rather well and when I try the online tests I seem to be rather good at them- especially when I answer with what I feel rather than what I know I am meant to say. I dont want to know for the sake of having a badge to wear and I wouldnt cry if I got told that I diddnt have it, I just want to understand things a bit better.

    Talking to my GP seems like a difficult thing to do, in honesty picking up the phone to make an appointment or making a phone call at all is something I get quite anxious about let alone sitting in a room with a person who is really a stranger and having to expose feelings and fears that I try hard to hide - especially when I have a fear that I might ultimately be told that I am wrong or that I am simply mad or something. My logical considered thinking says that this is irrational but my in the moment thinking seems to get stuck with these sorts of problems which is somewhat the problem I need to deal with.

    I have been able to so far get away with hiding things and having strategys to deal with people and events. However I am at a point where I am not sure I can proceed with my life without a bit of help or better understanding of myself and I find it difficult to explain why I need that help or why I have difficulty with some 'normal' things.

    It is nice to read that it isnt just me that has this problem in talking to a GP about it. It sounds silly I guess but reading things and forums the people with a diagnosis seem to have a lot of confidence with their condition and seem much more able to understand how to deal with things or how not to deal with things (to ask for help or for it to be okay to just hide from neighbours or perpetually avoid eye contact with human race whilst having incredibly rewarding realtionships with pets).

    Good luck :)

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  • Im 33 and seem to find myself in a similar position atm. I keep coming back to the problem that Aspergers seems to describe me rather well and when I try the online tests I seem to be rather good at them- especially when I answer with what I feel rather than what I know I am meant to say. I dont want to know for the sake of having a badge to wear and I wouldnt cry if I got told that I diddnt have it, I just want to understand things a bit better.

    Talking to my GP seems like a difficult thing to do, in honesty picking up the phone to make an appointment or making a phone call at all is something I get quite anxious about let alone sitting in a room with a person who is really a stranger and having to expose feelings and fears that I try hard to hide - especially when I have a fear that I might ultimately be told that I am wrong or that I am simply mad or something. My logical considered thinking says that this is irrational but my in the moment thinking seems to get stuck with these sorts of problems which is somewhat the problem I need to deal with.

    I have been able to so far get away with hiding things and having strategys to deal with people and events. However I am at a point where I am not sure I can proceed with my life without a bit of help or better understanding of myself and I find it difficult to explain why I need that help or why I have difficulty with some 'normal' things.

    It is nice to read that it isnt just me that has this problem in talking to a GP about it. It sounds silly I guess but reading things and forums the people with a diagnosis seem to have a lot of confidence with their condition and seem much more able to understand how to deal with things or how not to deal with things (to ask for help or for it to be okay to just hide from neighbours or perpetually avoid eye contact with human race whilst having incredibly rewarding realtionships with pets).

    Good luck :)

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