Hi all, just at the beginning of my journey.

Hi there all, my name is Joe. I am 34 years old and I have always known I was different. I never really understood why, but for some reason, my outlook on the world always seemed different from others.

I honestly don't know if I have aspergers, but there was some question about this when I was younger, and it was never followed up. In the last four years, I have met about 6 people who have aspergers, and they have come up to me, and presumed I had it, and just started talking to me as though I have. I have also met peope who work with people with autism, and they have commented that I have all thew classic traits. This is always totally unsolicited.

Does this mean I have aspergers, no of course not. But it did get me thinking.

So I am now at the point in my life where I want answers. Appart from always having difficulties fitting in, I have difficulty maintaining relationships with other people. I have had problems staying in full time employment, and often find it hard to communicate with other people.

I don't know what the future holds, or if I will be able to identify exactly what my difficulties are. But the more I read about aspergers, and talk to people to have it, the more I see that this would explain lirerally all of my life difficulties. Some things are just too specific to be anything else.

Or to put it anoher way, I have always had problems, but the term 'aspergers' in my opinion is the only description I have ever come across that encompasses all of the ways I struggle in life.

My issue is this. I have issues with my doctor. I really don't feel comfortable talking to him. In truth, I always seem to struggle talking to medical profesionals. The irony is, I think that it is my issues with this condition that are causing the difficulty :?

Is there any other way of getting tested, other than to go through your GP?

Anyway, just wanted to reach out and say hi.

Best of luck on your journeys.

Peace

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  • What I mean is, I am not exactly sure how to do that :?

    You know what it is like, I wouldn't have got to 34 and not ended up homeless and destitute unless I had got reasonably good at behaving like everyone else... I don't even know when I am doing it. It is an automated response. the only time I notice it is when I am not doing it and i have to try and force it. And usually fail...

    I am not even sure how to go about unpicking a lifetime of conditioning :?

    I am fairly sure I could talk about everything that has happened fairly unemotionally, and directly. I say that now, but in the moment.. Maybe ti would be harder. That isn't what worries me.

    What worries me is, these behaviors are just so ingrained into me, that I might not be able to stop, even if I try.

    Does that make any sense?

    I am just worried that I will get no where, and end up slipping under the radar again :?

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  • What I mean is, I am not exactly sure how to do that :?

    You know what it is like, I wouldn't have got to 34 and not ended up homeless and destitute unless I had got reasonably good at behaving like everyone else... I don't even know when I am doing it. It is an automated response. the only time I notice it is when I am not doing it and i have to try and force it. And usually fail...

    I am not even sure how to go about unpicking a lifetime of conditioning :?

    I am fairly sure I could talk about everything that has happened fairly unemotionally, and directly. I say that now, but in the moment.. Maybe ti would be harder. That isn't what worries me.

    What worries me is, these behaviors are just so ingrained into me, that I might not be able to stop, even if I try.

    Does that make any sense?

    I am just worried that I will get no where, and end up slipping under the radar again :?

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