I can't cope anymore, and I really can't see how things could get better
Why do I not deserve an inspiring, positive and fulfilling job and career prospects
I am trapped in an unhealthy place because I suck at interviews and have lost all my confidence
I am also trapped because of the shitty organisation I work for
No good company has ever hired me
I am not a pleasant person; I think I deserve better and my communication style is ***
My workplace is causing me anxiety and stress
They are probably just running through the motions, hoping I will resign
I suck at networking and all the things one is supposed to do to get ahead in life
I have become bitter
I cried uncontrollably and imagined stabbing myself with a knife in the belly, or did I imagine stabbing somebody else... who knows.... I won't do either
Are other people being briefed about how difficult and negative I am and is this why I can't get a job somewhere else
I have been moved to a job that I don't want to do and it's not healthy for me, and they know because I told them about my autism and how this role isn't a good fit
Somebody from HR reached out about a similar job to what I was in before but alone the thought of having to work with these managers is causing me anxiety and stress. I don't want to go there anyhow
It's complicated and depressing and so hopeless
I have a boyfriend sine a few months who says he thinks I am great and that he's with me and he supports me, but it's sadly not helping
I am apparently very intelligent, but nobody seems to care, I am just as a person unattractive, and they probably think I can't do the job
I hate my life
And my anxiety is getting worse and I don't know how to cope anymore