I feel trapped in my own mind

I cant stop my mind from going off on internal dialogs about people, who when i feel balanced and centered i feel indifferent and even happy and loving towards. I am being stretched really thin mentally and physically right now, its a whole long story about my living situation I'm about to be free from, but yeah anyways, i have been trying to just let them pass and focus on activity's and work a lot, i find myself having this stuff happen still and it starts to overwhelm me and i go into these like frustrated rage fits, i try breathing exercises, looking at open spaces, trying to counter balance the thoughts with nice thoughts which is really hard sometimes, i will just be so focused on whatever happened that makes the person come to mind, like i really just want to be sweet and kind and especially in my mind, i don't like wasting my time thinking thoughts like this.

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  • could mean a few days to a few years to releasing the relationship from any future ownership/dues/responsibilities

    It's 3 years 5 months and 13 days after my ex told me she has a new boyfriend, and we've been together for 10 years, OK we had issues, and she had troubles accepting possibility I might be autistic, but just like that, ''out of the blue'' it's over.

    I'm still thinking about that relationship, it keeps coming back, even though I haven't seen or heard from her since we moved out of the flat we rented together.

    So there is still something unresolved bothering me unconsciously I reckon

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  • could mean a few days to a few years to releasing the relationship from any future ownership/dues/responsibilities

    It's 3 years 5 months and 13 days after my ex told me she has a new boyfriend, and we've been together for 10 years, OK we had issues, and she had troubles accepting possibility I might be autistic, but just like that, ''out of the blue'' it's over.

    I'm still thinking about that relationship, it keeps coming back, even though I haven't seen or heard from her since we moved out of the flat we rented together.

    So there is still something unresolved bothering me unconsciously I reckon

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  • It's 3 years 5 months and 13 days
    So there is still something unresolved bothering me unconsciously I reckon

    I hope you won't take offence at this Mariusz, but as you're able to remember exactly how long it has been since that relationship I am inclined to agree that there probably is something unresolved.

    As you had been together for 10 years, I think it's understandable that you continue to find yourself thinking back to that relationship. To be honest, I think it would be unusual if you didn't. Approximately 20 years ago I had been in a relationship with someone that had lasted for about 18 months. Even though we've both moved on, I still think about it from time to time, as I had considered it to be an important chapter of my life.