Autism and a life worth living.

I'm so sorry you are finding things so hard at the moment. I send you hugs and positive vibes. I hope things start to get a bit better.

I don't find a lot of reasons to keep going on with life. As time goes by I'm seeing less for myself.

My autism is difficult at the best of times. I'm in pain constantly and my face is scarred and deformed on one side which at times makes me feel special but overall it looks weird and makes me feel bad.

I guess what keeps me going is I love my family and don't want to upset and disappoint them.

Hi Paige, I’m sorry your struggling at the moment. It must be very difficult to deal with pain and also having a scar on your face - it must take a huge amount of courage to deal with that. I have quite a big scar on my leg and when I was at school I remember being very self conscious about it in PE lessons - I felt people were looking at it and it made me feel awful. Looking back on it I realise that probably nobody probably even cared about it - and that people are actually really understand and empathise with people with scars etc. 
I’m so glad you have a loving and supportive family. 
My husband and children are what keeps me going too - without them I doubt I’d even still be here. 
I’m sure you’d never disappoint your family - because they love you and when you really love someone you don’t feel disappointed in them - you always understand them and support them. x 

Hello Kate thank you for your kind lovely message. I tend to overthink and focus on things sometimes "think we all do this don't we?" and that leads to me feeling like this over how I look. The pain is upsetting as that's every day but it's feeling a little easier at the moment so I'm hoping it will be a good day today. 

I'm sorry to hear about your scar and I understand feeling like everyone was looking. I feel that all the time with my scar, I expect you're right no one will be looking probably. It's probably just me overthinking things as usual. But I can't help it. I can only imagine how anxious that made you at school? I had dreadful anxiety at school. I'm hoping people don't really notice it. 

I'm really glad you've got your family Kate. They are so lucky to have such an understanding and wonderful woman in their lives. I bet you are what keeps them going as well. I think a lot of the time it's families that gives people the strength they need.

I do worry about disappointing my family but I hope I'm wrong and you're right about never disappointing them.

Hello Kate thank you for your kind lovely message. I tend to overthink and focus on things sometimes "think we all do this don't we?" and that leads to me feeling like this over how I look. The pain is upsetting as that's every day but it's feeling a little easier at the moment so I'm hoping it will be a good day today. 

I'm sorry to hear about your scar and I understand feeling like everyone was looking. I feel that all the time with my scar, I expect you're right no one will be looking probably. It's probably just me overthinking things as usual. But I can't help it. I can only imagine how anxious that made you at school? I had dreadful anxiety at school. I'm hoping people don't really notice it. 

I'm really glad you've got your family Kate. They are so lucky to have such an understanding and wonderful woman in their lives. I bet you are what keeps them going as well. I think a lot of the time it's families that gives people the strength they need.

I do worry about disappointing my family but I hope I'm wrong and you're right about never disappointing them.