Worries of death?

Does anyone else feel like they're ganna die soon, like you're body feels so *** you feel like you're ganna die of natural causes? I'm 22 I feel like I'm in a 90 year olds body, doesn't help that I have health anxiety. I am fully getting things ready in case I die, I just feel like I'll die in my sleep or something. Some people say autism is a gift, for me it feels like a curse. Noone understands me or goes through what I do and it makes me really sad 

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  • I do.

    Tied to my body/medical phobias is a pre-occupation with death. I sometimes think that my every moment of life has been focused on my yet to come moment if passing.

    What counts is what we do between now and then. I try to hold that at my core. I often think I will be, even want to be taken in my sleep so that I will not suffer in a hospital with doctors around me. But until that day, I have a job to do...and it's about how I serve humanity. 

    Perhaps, if I am lucky, I will get a few moments of personal joy.

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  • I do.

    Tied to my body/medical phobias is a pre-occupation with death. I sometimes think that my every moment of life has been focused on my yet to come moment if passing.

    What counts is what we do between now and then. I try to hold that at my core. I often think I will be, even want to be taken in my sleep so that I will not suffer in a hospital with doctors around me. But until that day, I have a job to do...and it's about how I serve humanity. 

    Perhaps, if I am lucky, I will get a few moments of personal joy.

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