I'm upset at the moment. It's not been a great week for me.... I went to work on Monday and a little girl fell over and started crying, so I gave her a hug to comfort her and her mum totally lost it with me. She called me names, shouted at me, told me I could give her daughter covid... It was horrible and then on Tuesday when I saw her again she went for me again. She told me to stay away from her daughter. I said sorry so many times but she's also emailed the school complaining about me... So I've quit, I suffer from severe anxiety and this was the only job I was able to get and I really loved it but now it's been ruined for me and I'm so anxious again. Really upset about that. I didn't intend to cause any upset I just wanted to comfort the little girl because she was upset. I feel like a bad person now and can't figure out if I did right or wrong there. It felt right at the time but maybe I was wrong, I don't know now.
But I'm now jobless and my parents are on my case which is unfortunate. They've never understood autism and my anxiety, they think I should get over it but it's just not that simple... I've tried but I can't. It's a part of me, I'm a part of it. I went to see a doctor before and they just tried to give me lots of pills which made the symptoms worse.
Just when things were going so well and now everything's fallen apart. I'll struggle to get another job now, especially one I enjoy.
I'm so upset right now.
