Not sure how much more I can take!

Hello,


Sorry this is going to be a bit of a rant I think......
I just don't know how much more I can take of it all at the moment!
My daughters been on the waiting list for an ados since June last year and it was due to be done in January.
I keep calling to check and one of the drs left and so there is a backlog and they can't tell me how much longer its going to be...
My daughter is getting worse in terms of her violence, growling, pinching, unreasonableness, difficulty etc etc and the whole time I'm waiting I feel in limbo. I've had time off work and I'm on meds because I just can't cope. I've cried every day this week and I just feel like I can't go on. I love her so much but it hurts to see her so scared of life and wondering why she has no friends and I am just so worried she'll never be happy, even I don't make her happy anymore. 
All I want to do at the moment is run away and I think I've put all my hope on this test and they might not even say she has asd!! 
Sorry. I said it would be a rant I just needed to blurt and I need someone to tell me I'm normal feeling like this, I just feel like a complete failure!!
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  • For uncertainty, limbo, anxiety, take action,,, any action. You are internalising the situation all it is doing is stressing you and causing anxiety and depression. You would think the NAS would assist in this matter. The last thing you need is both mother and daughter to be struggling, remember if your daughter is diagnosed, her behaviours are just poor coping strategies, so nothing to be guilt about or ashamed about,. Hang in there. Time will heal.

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  • For uncertainty, limbo, anxiety, take action,,, any action. You are internalising the situation all it is doing is stressing you and causing anxiety and depression. You would think the NAS would assist in this matter. The last thing you need is both mother and daughter to be struggling, remember if your daughter is diagnosed, her behaviours are just poor coping strategies, so nothing to be guilt about or ashamed about,. Hang in there. Time will heal.

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