Published on 12, July, 2020
Hello everyone, I've recently been told I may have asperger's, I'm 33 years old and have never thought about having autism and to be honest I never understood what autism actually meant until recently.
So my partner that I've been with for 10 years brought asperger's up not long ago and she said I think you may have it so I done research into it because I had no idea and it does make alot of sense.
I always thought it was everyone around me that was different since I was at a very young age, the things kids done and the way they socialise made me wonder why am I not like them, do I not talk enough? Do I talk weird? Kids always used to say I talked posh or proper compared to everyone else.
As an adult I just thought everyone's different and I just accepted that, I've always been pretty quiet and found it hard to get on with people unless they expressed an interest that I liked. I don't understand emotions I always thought that was caused by my depression and left it at that, I have learnt to help with people's feelings not because I understand their feelings but rather through experience with other interactions with other people in the past, I have no idea what they actually feel because I don't understand it.
I love crafting and I'm very creative, but I'm obsessive with my hobbies and forget about everything else and lose sense of time, my partner often reminds me how much time I've spent doing one thing, i do metal detecting and gold panning, I love looking at maps and researching areas to detect and also gold panning /geology, I collect rocks and minerals. I could spend all day everyday researching no problem which I can't since I have a family.
And yes lol I realise that all my interests are in life are solo which I prefer to be on my own.
I've always felt like an outsider looking in at other people's life's trying to understand why I'm not involved but I don't care at the same time like I didn't even want to be involved but wanted to be normal like everyone else to fit in.
Sorry haven't told anyone this not sure other people would understand.
I done the AQ test and scored 41/50 also
Thank you for reading, does this sound like I may have asperger's?
Hope you guys are having a good day.
Yeh I was too scared to let anyone know the real me for the fear of being bullied I loved gaming anime nature treasure hunting and I don't know why but I've always liked the sounds and feeling I get when I'm in woodland.
My parents had zero interest in me as a child I was always quiet I'd get forgotten about because I didn't ever complain about anything. If I mentioned to them now about if I got diagnosed I don't think it would make much of a difference. It's mainly for my partner, she often thinks I'm ignorant and that I don't listen or care how she feels, she was watching a TV programme and noticed the many similarities between me and someone with asperger's.
I think she's 100% right but don't feel like I can say for sure even though every test I take puts me up pretty high.
I'm glad that you managed to get through school with friends that had similar interests, all I can say is that I wouldn't be the person I am today if I hadn't went though what I did, wouldn't change it.
As for work, Ive recently started a small business making jewellery from coins which is going great, I work along doing something I like.
In the past with jobs I've always had job roles that are solidarity, such as working in the back of a supermarket warehouse or in a tree nursery picking orders of trees in a giant field on my own.
It's crazy that I am 33 years old and just realising this.
Thanks plastic
NAS72195 said:I've always liked the sounds and feeling I get when I'm in woodland.
Me too - the peace and quiet - the calmness - the sound of the breeze in the branches and leaves - the animal sounds - heaven.
NAS72195 said:My parents had zero interest in me as a child
Me too - I'm a twin - he is 'normal' but was sickly as a child - they were too busy with him to bother with me - I was too difficult.
Funnily enough, there's a good chance one of your parents is on the spectrum too - I'm 99% sure my mum was an undiagnosed aspie.
NAS72195 said:Ive recently started a small business making jewellery from coins which is going great, I work along doing something I like.
I'm glad you've found your niche in life - it's where we all need to be.
I did things the hard way - worked hard, got used and abused - right up until I was 4th on the org-chart in a huge multinational - but I couldn't take the politics and bullying. They paid be a big lump of cash with a non-disclosure to go away - so I retired out.