My family hate me

My family hate me.

Ever since I was diagnosed they treat me differently. They dont speak to me unless they have to. And they act around me like I’m a time bomb that could go off at any second. To make matters worse I am bullied at school by everyone. Name calling. Taking my stuff. Marking me with pens because they know I hate the feel on my skin. Ive told my teachers but they dont like me either. Told me it’s in my mind. I told my mum her words of wisdom ‘You’re a big girl now deal with it’.

When I was really young I didn’t mix well with other children. I struggled to make friends. I didn’t cope well with change to my routine and I struggle to communicate verbally. But ive always been nice as possible because I treat others how I want to be treated. I wish I hadnt been diagnosed. Before the diagnosis my family loved me and now they dont speak to me unless they have to. Its like I have a disease or something.

Recently ive started feeling depressed. Im imagining things as well. Things I know could never be true but a part of me believes it. My minds a mess. But have no one to talk to because everyone avoids me. Even my sisters dont speak to me.

I want to give up. No one loves or likes me. My life is empty and full of misery and pain. I finish school in two years and I wont last another year. I dont know what to do. I have no one. Im hoping to make a friend or two here, see if anyone else is like me and has been through this.

Parents
  • Your experiences sound very familiar.

    Can I ask why you were diagnosed?

    How do other people know about it?

    Did you publicise it?

    With age, I  am getting more and more sceptical, careful, and more streetwise. 

    In life we have to be careful, and only disclose a diagnosis when it is required or to our advantage.

    My advise is to just carry on as the best you can and don't mention autism if you can avoid it.

    I hope other people here will be more helpful.

     

Reply
  • Your experiences sound very familiar.

    Can I ask why you were diagnosed?

    How do other people know about it?

    Did you publicise it?

    With age, I  am getting more and more sceptical, careful, and more streetwise. 

    In life we have to be careful, and only disclose a diagnosis when it is required or to our advantage.

    My advise is to just carry on as the best you can and don't mention autism if you can avoid it.

    I hope other people here will be more helpful.

     

Children
  • Thank you for replying.

    I was diagnosed because when I was younger I used to make unusual sounds. I couldn't ride a bike and stay on it. Very bad balance. And I also wash my hands like 50 times an hour. All this led to a diagnosis.

    I told other people because my dad said I shouldnt hide who I am. I agreed with him so I said. Really that should've been fine but as usual there was people who saw it as a laugh and a reason to start picking on me.

    Telling people about my diagnosis was a mistake but I feel angry because it shouldnt have been. People should be mature enough to accept it but they arent. Everyone should be able to be proud of who they are but we cant be because everyone else thinks its a joke.