Worthless!

I’m finding myself felling rather worthless today and that my existence is a pointless one!

i have no job and doubt I will get one, nor do I want one as I don’t function well it the work environment. 

I’m of no use at home due to my lack of motivation and procrastination I don’t do anything around the house to help, I don’t even help myself, eating or keeping on top of hygiene. 

I have no ‘special skills’ or any strengths that I’m aware of, there’s nothing I really excel at, nor do I have any special interests. The things that I’m ok at I can’t work at getting better at because of my perfectionism issues, if I’m not great at it straight away I get stressed and anxious and quit!

Just finding it very hard to see the point in being alive, but even if I wanted to commit suicide my lack of motivation wouldn’t allow, so there is a silver lining for being ‘lazy’. I know it’s not laziness but that’s how NT’s perceive it. 

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  • You are absolutely not worthless. Life can be really tough, especially when everything seems so much more overwhelming than it is for most NT people.

    Like Cellar Door said, focus on the little steps you can take to care for yourself. Maybe you could set yourself a schedule for the day (including time to shower, time to exercise, time to eat, time to do your gaming etc.). Maybe planning the day in advance could help you to get started with some small changes.

    Like Roswell said, there might also be underlying health conditions. I've been putting my digestive issues and extreme fatigue down to autism and anxiety, but since a recent visit to the GP, it sounds like there are medical factors that I was completely unaware of. I'm having some tests and might need to see a specialist, depending on the outcome. 

    Go and see your doctor if you can. In the meantime, try not to be so hard on yourself. You do have value and I'm sure the people who love you would agree.

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  • You are absolutely not worthless. Life can be really tough, especially when everything seems so much more overwhelming than it is for most NT people.

    Like Cellar Door said, focus on the little steps you can take to care for yourself. Maybe you could set yourself a schedule for the day (including time to shower, time to exercise, time to eat, time to do your gaming etc.). Maybe planning the day in advance could help you to get started with some small changes.

    Like Roswell said, there might also be underlying health conditions. I've been putting my digestive issues and extreme fatigue down to autism and anxiety, but since a recent visit to the GP, it sounds like there are medical factors that I was completely unaware of. I'm having some tests and might need to see a specialist, depending on the outcome. 

    Go and see your doctor if you can. In the meantime, try not to be so hard on yourself. You do have value and I'm sure the people who love you would agree.

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