Hi, my name is mollie and I am sixteen years old.
I havn't had any type of diagnosis, or spoken to anyone about my suspicions, but I have researched aspergers and it may possibly explain why I am the way I am.
I dont fit any of the steriotypical features associated with aspergers but some of the less common ones, usually related to women, fit with me.
I hate new social situations and dont know how to act in most, although once I know the people I'm with I turn from painfully shy to loud and bossy and incredibally irritating. For years I thought I had a personality disorder as I act completly different with different people-almost uncontrollably, and get confused when two world meet. I now suspect this is me mimicking people without realizing.
I dont have any real set routines or 'quirks', I'm not super intelligent and I dont have any special interests. In fact I have an almost non-existent attention span.
Also, I know that people with aspergers are known to be un-sensitive to peoples feelings but I seem to be hypersensitive- the slightest feeling of annoyance from someone and I totally shut down. I have really bad mood swings too.
I dont know if this is relevant, and its embarrassing to say, but I have an entire world in my head. I know everything about the people there and I have to walk for at least an hour or two a day to indulge in this world. I have trouble sleeping because I cant turn this off.
I'm sorry for the length of this rant, but I dont want to tell anyone that I think I might be Aspie without proper reason, eg I dont want to waste the doctors time. Is it even neccesary to get an official diagnosis?
p.s, after another bad lot of depression I had councelling sessions which were pretty much a dead end, being told to 'combat negative thoughts' and set goals wasn't particually helpful to me, especially as one-to-one conversation with new people baffle me once we get past the 'hello's' and 'nice weather' bit. Will this bias my doctor?
Much thanks, Mollie :)
