Suicide and self harm...

is there anyone else out there with EUPD (BPD) and Aspergers syndrome ????

usually, aspergers people arent very good at emotions anyway.....the combination of these two things , i think , make it even harder and was just wondering if i'm right (if right is the correct word).  

unstable emotions + confused emotions = disaster.

why , if youre over 25 yrs old , is there NO help , and your just expected to "get on with it" ??

i'm not saying the under 25's don't need help , i'm saying its unfair , its very , very tiring , and its extremly frustrating,

when people are speaking to me , i never know how to take it , due to most of my life theres been a hidden meaning , true or not.

a person could say to me " hello, are you alright?? ,  and id be thinking they were upto something , and they knew something i didnt.

mood changes in less than the blink of an eye and very , very random.  theres DBT to help it , but cos i am currently self harming as a coping stratedgy this cant happen , and anyways im very tired at present and dont think i could keep it up as ive heard its very very tiring and its a year long process in a group of however many other peoples. 

i feel i am trapped in a mind that i dont want to be in but cos its been such a long time its sort of , in a weird/strange way its sort of become apart of me and maybes a coping/protective thing....., i dont sleep on a night , i can be up till 3am , 4am, or 5am and even then the fear of sleeping is still there.... 

im frightened to do stuff , ie:- games , cooking , cleaning , tv , reading , self care , music (sometimes) , go out & about (i do go out regularly) , etc , cos i am extremly scared/petrified in case i would flip into a horrible emotion .............. 

one more thing .....life doesnt need to be this complicated , stressful , money orientated as it is , so why does nothing ever change , why does the same thing happen over and over and over again......what needs to happen to change the viscious cycle of life ......everyones got rights but they havent!!!!! 

Welcome back, it's nice to hear from you.

I assure you that as an autistic, I do not have ulterior motives for what I say to you. Because I experience and feel some of the things you describe.

I also have difficulty sleeping.  Now it 2:30 in the morning!

I was wondering why you call yourself Dexter on this site.  Is it from the TV series Dexter?  I have all eight seasons of Dexter on a DVD boxset.   If your real name is actually Dexter I apologise for what I've just written.

Dexter is the name of my mam & dad's cat. (i don't want to put my real name on). No apologies needed.  heard of the TV series , but not seen it.  think its about one hour an episode and my concentration is crap. usually watch things that are about 20 - 30 mins such as :- family guy, not going out, sometimes live at the apollo (depending who's on), mock the weeks ok.  think i've a dark sense of humour. don't like cruel humour where it hurts people. don't like hypocritical comedy. 

i like music too.

Basically the TV series Dexter is about a serial killer who kills other serial killers who have escaped justice.  Dexter may be Autistic because he finds it difficult to make a connection with 'normal' people.  To him killing is a form of stress relief.

Basically the TV series Dexter is about a serial killer who kills other serial killers who have escaped justice.  Dexter may be Autistic because he finds it difficult to make a connection with 'normal' people.  To him killing is a form of stress relief.