I'm really struggling with life at the moment. I've basically shut myself off from the world for the past 10 years and now I'm trying to build a life for myself but I'm finding it all overwhelming. I find myself wanting to shut myself away again. I want to have friends and a partner and a job, but now that I'm on the road to obtaining those things I feel terrified. I felt lonely and like I had no future before, but I'm finding building this future for myself to be stressful beyond belief, which is making me depressed. Has anyone else here struggled through these things? It seems as soon as someone gets close to being a friend/partner I get terrified and want to hide. Life feels like such a struggle. Will it always be like this?
