Do I belong here?

Well, it has been quite a summer. After lots of research and many read books, I've identified hugely with Aspie traits and braved joining here to see if I can find my space in this small world. I have encountered a lot of remarkable people and been touched by the kindness and brilliance of many.  Identified with all, though some much more than others.

I return to the rat run of work at the end of this week. "Do I stay or do I go" -  to quote the Clash or scamper off and be the Elephant in the Room in the big world out there, do I belong in this forum, do I matter, or am I just an imposter.

no, I am not diagnosed, no, I don't think that I grabbed a diagnostic label and ran with it....I need to connect somewhere, with someone, with something or do I  conuntue my own lonely path. I strongly feel that I connect with this even though it can be a bitter sweet pill.

honest appraisals please...

big love to all of you and thank you for your time.

Parents
  • Of course you belong here, I could cry at the thought of you disappearing, we understand that you will have to be busy elsewhere soon, but please don't disappear completely. I'm on my phone so this is a rubbish reply, I have another quote to throw at you when I have access to it... 

    This was not a summer fling, we need you! x

  • Lol - this is not a summer fling Spotty, my dear....

    the whole month now has been such an experience of self recognition but as you know it can be emotionally draining as well.

    i identify a lot with you Spotty.. the lost self buried in its shell, waiting for validation to come out and explore without fear. You are a wonderful woman and are much loved here  -don't forget that!

    Speak soon lovely x

  • I agree with Lone, I'm enourmously moved by you saying sweet caring things but also find it hard to respond. I adore the idea of a scampering elephant. We will find some answers to help eventually I think. For now we have to wade around in the tsunami water rising, but you have find a break to continue your life. The motivation of your son must be huge but please take care of you too. x

  • Many years ago and still when I start a watercolour, the notion of bruises in the psyche, the body and the paper are all part of the initial layer of marks.

    Broken biscuits, battered people (not mars bars) are all the interesting bits, more truth there. I hope you are asleep and not reading this.

  • Bruises are beautiful too...we are all wounded warriors my dear. We come home at the end of the day as if we have been on a battlefield.

    i had an Aunt who knitted for a fashion designer. I have a quilt upstairs made from every single one of my young girl summer dresses...( now there is a box that needs unpacking), made by my mother, my sister is also one for textiles.

    keep shining Warrior. I miss you when you are not here 

    try not to fit it too hard...misfits are just as important. A broken biscuit tastes just as good in my cup of tea? 

  • Loving the quilt idea! Will it be square patches or five sided ones,Don't laugh I once made a quilt,well started it with six sided bits of paper I drew and cut out,hand sewed them together,all old bits of clothing, I also did crotchet,never got the knitting thing,and my cross stitch is quite good to.

    You are all lovely individuals and I have got so much confidence by being here,I keep saying how well I do compared to others! But and it is a BIG but,I survive by just going through what is expected.I do suffer but as I get older I just look back and find whatever I need to overcome each issue,I get it wrong sometimes but I always say to myself"no matter how bad it gets?ultimately I could just walk away and be me,no bruises no injuries,basically even at work,nobody actually owns me,I am a being on a huge planet.I'm just trying to fit in.

    take care friends,big huggies to all,one at a time blush blush and above the quilt please ladies.

  • Keep here if you can...we are a bunch of crazy kooks. But I thing we each understand the ups and downs and the stings and bites that life can have. You are all amazing ....happy to be a piece of quilt...but that is a story for another day! 

  • You fit perfectly Misfit, the more of us in the quilt the richer. x

Reply Children
  • Many years ago and still when I start a watercolour, the notion of bruises in the psyche, the body and the paper are all part of the initial layer of marks.

    Broken biscuits, battered people (not mars bars) are all the interesting bits, more truth there. I hope you are asleep and not reading this.

  • Bruises are beautiful too...we are all wounded warriors my dear. We come home at the end of the day as if we have been on a battlefield.

    i had an Aunt who knitted for a fashion designer. I have a quilt upstairs made from every single one of my young girl summer dresses...( now there is a box that needs unpacking), made by my mother, my sister is also one for textiles.

    keep shining Warrior. I miss you when you are not here 

    try not to fit it too hard...misfits are just as important. A broken biscuit tastes just as good in my cup of tea? 

  • Loving the quilt idea! Will it be square patches or five sided ones,Don't laugh I once made a quilt,well started it with six sided bits of paper I drew and cut out,hand sewed them together,all old bits of clothing, I also did crotchet,never got the knitting thing,and my cross stitch is quite good to.

    You are all lovely individuals and I have got so much confidence by being here,I keep saying how well I do compared to others! But and it is a BIG but,I survive by just going through what is expected.I do suffer but as I get older I just look back and find whatever I need to overcome each issue,I get it wrong sometimes but I always say to myself"no matter how bad it gets?ultimately I could just walk away and be me,no bruises no injuries,basically even at work,nobody actually owns me,I am a being on a huge planet.I'm just trying to fit in.

    take care friends,big huggies to all,one at a time blush blush and above the quilt please ladies.

  • Keep here if you can...we are a bunch of crazy kooks. But I thing we each understand the ups and downs and the stings and bites that life can have. You are all amazing ....happy to be a piece of quilt...but that is a story for another day!